Current location:	In Between
Current mood:	confused
Current music:	Legião Urbana - Eu Sei

Random Musings

* It's early, the house is quiet and I'm getting ready for work.
* I've been working for thirty years, now, actually, nearly thirty-five, if you count part-time work during college.
* I will qualify for a full pension in another six years.
* There's no way in h*ll I'll be able to afford to retire then.
* I was moved to a different location at work yesterday, spent a lot of time this week cleaning my cubicle and packing things up.
* I feel really tired right now.
* I wonder if I'm anemic - or something worse.
* I always imagine the worst.



* Somehow I feel like I deserve it when things go wrong.
* Conversely, I get really angsty when things go right, like there's that Stark Fist of Removal that the Subgeniuses go on about, just right there, to punish me for enjoying things.
* I don't quite understand that, cause it's a stupid way to live.
* The older I get the more I'm reminded of how short this life really is.
* My life is way-more than half over.
* That Flaming Lips song lyric still gets me, every time: 'Do you realize that everyone you know someday will die?'
* My kitty is likely to die sooner than I will.
* He's fourteen years old.
* I feel a sense of melancholy just thinking about it.
* We had to have his brother put to sleep four years ago, and I think he missed his sibling-cat as much as I did, at the time.
* I waste alot of time.
* It's just about State Fair Time again.
* This will be the thirty-fifth year in a row I've attended the State Fair, without fail.
* It's going to be harder this year, because my feet are giving me trouble.
* I don't know why I enjoy going so much, but I always go more than once.
* I suppose part of it is the chance to get together with friends, and part of it is to hang out with my kids.
* But mostly it's become a ritual for me, I think, and rituals are important.
* I have a hard time sorting out in my head what's important.
* I let some things overwhelm me, and then just ignore alot of important stuff.
* I suppose I'm not that different from many, but I feel sometimes like I'm the only one who gets that way.
* Most of us - yes, me, too - like to imagine we act rationally, but we are a mess of contractions, lies and obfuscation.
* I'm tired of the lies told by politicians.
* Then again, they are merely telling us what they think we want to hear, and we are a fickle electorate, swept about by the chemicals in our brains.
* I am surprised that someone who was as formidable a candidate as was the now-POTUS BHO is so ineffective as a leader.
* I think I would be a terrible leader.
* It's important to be sure of one's self, and I know I would second-guess every thing I did.
* I second-guess everything now.
* I feel kind of lonely and confused now.
* It's time to eat some breakfast now.
* My cat is purring now.
* It's cloudy outside now.
* I wish I had more time to write now.
* The future is now.
* The future isn't what it used to be.
* Now.

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