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| Jul. 8th, 2009 11:40 pm Just Blathering I have a million things running around my head at the moment, and what keeps coming to mind are song lyrics.
No, really.
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Current Location: Oustanding In My Field Current Mood: blank Current Music: The House Of Love - 'Crush Me'
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| Jun. 27th, 2009 03:23 pm
Like the rest of the world, I was stunned at the death of Michael Jackson this past week. Then again, maybe not. I mean, he was kind of mess, really, with the disfiguring scars of his many plastic surgeries, and the obvious emotional traumas of his childhood that were still being played out well into his middle-age.
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Current Location: on the edge of the Dark Place Current Mood: exhausted Current Music: Michael Jackson - Smooth Criminal
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| May. 27th, 2009 06:11 pm Musing It's been a cool and overcast day, the kind that one usually associates with Seattle and/or London - though I've been in Seattle and seen the sunshine, so I have to wonder if that's not just a myth - but it's also the kind of day that most people would call 'dreary,' and indeed, there've been times when I've found such days to be on the dismal side.
But you know, mostly I find gray days like this to be soothing, cause bright sunshine tends to hurts my eyes, and I guess I'm actually left a bit more mellow for all the soft light of a truly cloudy day.
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| May. 14th, 2009 07:09 am Meh I'm having a 'meh' day, in the middle of a 'meh' week - okay, it's far more than a simple 'meh' - and there's not much I can to to ameliorate that right now, cause it's all about those things I cannot control.
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Back to Blogizdat on Blogspot (main blog) Current Location: The Dark Place Current Mood: exhausted Current Music: Jeff Buckley - Hallelujah
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| May. 7th, 2009 11:12 pm Lies, D*mn Lies And Static
Okay, something I really dislike - and I dislike it about myself, too - is when people use words in ways that are different than what they appear to really mean.
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Back to Blogizdat on Blogspot (main blog) Current Location: Almost There Current Mood: pissed off Current Music: David Bowie - Oh You Pretty Things
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| Apr. 30th, 2009 05:26 pm Blog Talk I was thinking just now about when I started blogging, on Livejournal, and I remember exactly how it all happened, what prompted me to dip my toe into the water, as it were, and who my first readers were.
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Back to Blogizdat on Blogspot (main blog) Current Location: In There Somewhere Current Mood: confused Current Music: Missy Higgins - The Sound Of White
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| Apr. 29th, 2009 11:07 pm Random Blather Okay, I keep promising to post more here - both clippings and writing - and I really do mean it, but something keeps coming up, either I get really busy, or I find myself feeling mute, or I end up mired in the swamps & quicksands of The Dark Place, or something - there's always something - but I'm determined to try, even if nothing ambitious, I'll aim for something weekly, and maybe go from there.
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Back to Blogizdat on Blogspot (main blog) Current Location: In Front Of The Windmills Current Mood: quixotic Current Music: Elliott Smith - Let's Get Lost
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| Mar. 31st, 2009 09:53 pm How To Lose Friends And Alienate People Okay, someone else already wrote a book or two on the subject - there's even a movie out by the name, check Amazon for the DVD info - but maybe I can still add something to the topic.
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Back to Blogizdat on Blogspot (main blog) Current Location: in between grass and hay Current Mood: sleepy Current Music: mina - living in between
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| Mar. 23rd, 2009 10:39 pm I'm In Shock And In Tears I just got a call from my brother telling me my aunt was killed in a freeway car crash this evening around suppertime. Apparently an SUV blew a tire, crossed the median and struck several vehicles, including one being driven by my aunt, and she died at the scene.
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Back to Blogizdat on Blogspot (main blog) Current Location: In Tears Current Mood: shocked Current Music: Taize' - Hallelujah
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| Mar. 22nd, 2009 02:19 pm This And That I've been going full-tilt in the Facebook world for nearly a year now, sometimes posting lots, sometimes posting little, and for all my carping about it, I don't hate it, I really don't - in fact, I kind of like it, if I can accept its limitations.
But the thing is, even though it's possible to write longer pieces on FB, some people actually get cranky about it, and one person I know even went so far as to 'de-friend' me for posting too often, told me it was annoying that I posted so many little things to my FB Wall.
Of course, I know there are at least a dozen of my nearly ten dozen Facebook Friends who not only read, but actually seem to enjoy what I post - or at least they say they do - and what's more, Facebook has allowed me to reconnect with some old friends with whom I'd lost touch for years, and to have some level of contact with persons who'd otherwise be out of my life altogether.
But, with all that said, there's still something a bit disturbing about the whole FB experience.
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Back to Blogizdat on Blogspot (main blog) Current Location: far from the maddening crowd Current Mood: melancholy Current Music: Missy HIggins - The Sound Of White
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| Mar. 3rd, 2009 11:05 pm The Other Site I've been meaning to tell you, and I can't keep this a secret any longer.
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Back to Blogizdat on Blogspot (main blog) Current Location: Living On The Edge Current Mood: cheated Current Music: Barry White - Can't Get Enough Of Your Love, Babe
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| Dec. 17th, 2008 10:19 am Remembering Keith On December 17, 1981 my best friend was killed by a drunk driver. What follows is something I wrote in his honor and posted several years back, and indeed, have posted more than once, but it's important to me, so I'm re-posting, with minor revisions and corrections.
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Back to Blogizdat on Blogspot (main blog) Current Location: On The Edge Of TDP Current Mood: melancholy Current Music: Nick Drake - Pink Moon
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| Dec. 16th, 2008 07:11 am Tuesday AM I don't get it.
Nearly every day I think to myself that I really need to start writing here again, and nearly every day I find some reason to not do so.
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| Nov. 2nd, 2008 08:14 am This And That And The Other Okay, I'm starting this on Saturday night, and I've felt a bit weird all day, just kind of out of my element, partly because I've been coming down with a cold this past week, and partly the same-old feeling of anxiety that plagues me periodically, the kind that feels like it comes from the pit of the stomach and moves up and out of the sternum.
Yeah, that one. Never felt it? Good for you. It's not fun.
Thing is, it's strange that it's not entirely out-of-the-blue, cause there are triggers, and I know what they might be, but it's not consistent, and sometimes they set me off, and sometimes they don't - it's hit or miss, just unpredictable, really. But as I've written here so many times, when it comes crashing in there's little I can do to alleviate it other than to go for a long walk and/or just wait for it to pass, and today my foot has been hurting so much that I couldn't do the walking thing, so I'm just going to have to ride it out.
Meh.
As an aside, it's funny, I've experienced periodic trips to The Dark Place since I was quite young, and yet it wasn't until about two or three years ago that I began to be able to unravel the difference between depression and anxiety. I guess for years I'd thought it was all just the same, and when clinicians would ask me if I was experiencing one or the other, I'd always feel stupid for not knowing how to differentiate them, but now I feel stupid because I can, cause it's like talking about the weather, even having armed myself with knowledge, there's still nothing I can do about it all.
Or something
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Current Location: Between The Glory And The Flame Current Mood: anxious Current Music: THOL - Loneliness Is A Gun
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| Nov. 1st, 2008 10:59 am Meh Meh
So, we're about to hold yet another election for president in these United States, and the peoples of the world are holding their breaths, hoping and praying we do the right thing by electing their choice of Barack M. Hussein Obama to the highest office of our land.
WTH?
Look, I know this will smack of extreme arrogance and hubris but I don't really give a hoot in hades what some wine-sipping effete French pseudo-intellectual, or neo-Marxist Oxford Uni Econ professor, or power-mad Iranian Parliament President thinks or wants us to do.
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Back to Blogizdat on Blogspot (main blog) Current Location: a dead-end street Current Mood: drained Current Music: mh - where i stood
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| Oct. 19th, 2008 11:31 pm This And That
On Blogging:
I know I haven't written much here, recently, and I keep meaning to write more, but it's so easy to fall into Facebook/Twitter mode (yes, I have an account with both) and just post little blips of nothing to those sites, and it all seems so pedestrian, but then again, that's pretty much real life, too, innit, just a collection of meaningless events, connected by more of the same. Maybe that's why I still like blogging, cause it's only in backing away from the canvas and pondering it all that I can see how the pretty and ugly little pixels actually make up a larger picture.
Or something.
So, anyway, I'll try to write more. I promise. Yeah, know you've heard that before, but you'll see, it'll be different this time, baby. I've turned over a new leaf. I'm a new man. I've changed.
Or something.
Meh.
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Current Location: Over The Rainbow, Still Looking For The Elusive Pot Of Gold Current Mood: confused Current Music: Black Box Recorder - The Facts Of Life
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| Sep. 28th, 2008 04:01 pm Welcome Back To Me, From Me
It's strange, I haven't written here in four or five weeks, and the longer I don't write, the more it just feels like there's no reason to ever write again, but it isn't like I haven't wanted to. I mean, I *have* wanted to, but it feels like inertia takes over, and it becomes ever more difficult to start back in again.
What's feels most sad is that I utterly neglected to note the birthday of my deceased sister on the 7th of September, the opening of the new 35W bridge over the Mississippi River on the 18th of September, as well the 4-year anniversary of the start of this blog on the 20th of September, and I really kind of regret all that.
So, what's been going on?
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| Aug. 12th, 2008 11:13 pm Ubuntu I spent some time this past weekend installing VMWare Fusion on my Mac, a program that allows me to use alternative Operating Systems.
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| Aug. 12th, 2008 12:36 am Addicted Most of us have things in our lives - past and present - that we're ashamed of, or at least that we don't like to admit to ourselves, let alone to others, those embarrassing things that cause us to cringe when we look at ourselves in the mirror, knowing full-well how easy it was to fall into the pit that now ensnares us, and how in the past we have looked down our noses at others who'd been so enmeshed.
Please allow me to share my story as a cautionary tale.
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| Jul. 23rd, 2008 06:13 pm Betty June, RIP Betty June, mother of Max, one of my very best friends from college - and since - passed away late this past week.
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Current Location: Just Over The Horizon Current Mood: sad Current Music: Fiona Apple - Oh Sailor
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